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- to allow myself to sit with uncomfortable emotions
- to focus on what is in my control
- to open up about how I’m feeling and ask for help
- and, that no matter what I’ll be OK
- the level of patience needed as everything is naturally taking me longer
- how it’s forcing me to slow down and be more deliberate in my actions
- that I will inevitably need help with some things and must be prepared to ask for it
- lapwings
- a curlew
- a snipe
- a red grouse
- partridge
- tufted ducks
- whinchats
- wheatears
- a reed warbler
- a great spotted woodpecker, and
- a skylark
- new binoculars; a great boost for my newfound love of birdwatching
- discovering #BirdsSeenIn2021, this alongside Dean Wilson’s pebble of the day series is reason enough to be on Twitter
- taking a new approach to my phone use and really feeling the benefits
- a couple of long walks a little further afield; exploring different sections of the region’s waggonways and including a return to the coast
- another successful virtual weekend away
- and last but not least, a win for Newcastle today
- visiting Anne Frank House via Anne’s video diary
- a night at the Rijksmuseum
- David Hockney’s thoughts on Vincent Van Gogh and Spring
- a fine selection of Dutch beer and cheeses
- some rather successful creations in the kitchen (if I don’t say so myself) including a Dutch apple cake and a selection of bar snacks
- a sunny day after a week of grey
- bullfinches on the bird feeders in the park
- not just the sight of blossom but the smell, oh my the smell is intoxicating
- the realisation that I’m so much into the running groove that I can even go out when I’m not really feeling in the mood for it
- having the option to self-define sexuality and gender on the census
- my parents got their first vaccine dose
- planning a summer refresh for the yard, including making a scale drawing to try out options
- an impromptu walk along the river with Izz
- buds bursting and the first sign of blossom
- a successful first foray into making chicken kiev
Newcastle United
When you turn to the sports pages today you’ll see elated Newcastle fans celebrating the end of the Mike Ashley era. That’s something I can join in with but what comes next is not.
I can’t ignore the human rights abuses of the new owners. I don’t want to support a team that is funded by the leaders of a country where people like me are flogged and put in jail.
I hoped for something better for Newcastle but this isn’t it.
I’m out.
Choose your words carefully
Within the space of two hours today I’ve been addressed as brother and, as part of a group, ladies. Neither is correct. On both occasions the speaker made an assumption about me. In the case of the former that assumption was based on my appearance. And in the latter, on my name.
I know that the intention behind the use of each of these words was to be friendly and welcoming, but that’s not necessarily how they are received.
I wanted to share this experience to encourage you to take a moment to think the next time you find yourself default to using gendered language. Especially when it’s in conversation with a group or someone you don’t know. Who are you addressing? What assumptions are you making about them? What non-gendered term could you use as an alternative?
This is day 39 of my #100DaysToOffload challenge. Want to get involved? Find out more at 100daystooffload.com
Let the rug be pulled from beneath you
Everything is changing all the time, and we keep wanting to pin it down, to fix it. So whenever you come up with a solid conclusion, let the rug be pulled out. You can pull out your own rug, and you can also let life pull it out for you.
I’ve been sitting with this quote from Pema Chödrön’s book start where you are for a few weeks now. Today feels like the right time to put some of my thinking down into words.
Why today? Well, on this day seven years ago I packed all my worldly belongings into my car and left town to start a new life. It was a leap into the unknown after the future I thought I was stepping into was taken away.
I’ve always described this experience as having the rug pulled from under me. It was the lowest point of my life and at the time I couldn’t see how I was going to get out of it. I’d been holding so tightly to one specific outcome and suddenly it felt like there was nothing in front of me. Everything was fuzzy. Everything was uncertain.
When I was in the midst of it, it was hard to imagine life being any different. Anything beyond the day in front of me felt unclear. Somehow I knew that all I could do was to take things one day at a time. To put one foot in front of the other and slowly make my way forward. As time passed, the world started to open up again and I was eventually able to start making plans further into the future. To rebuild my life on my own terms.
With the perspective that each new year brings, I can now look back on that time and feel grateful for what the experience has taught me. I learned:
Five years on from this, I chose to pull the rug out myself, to make another leap into the unknown. I moved from the security of employment to the rollercoaster of running a business of my own. It was a step I’m certain I would never have taken without that previous experience.
What I think I’ve learned over the past seven years, and what I read in the words that started this whole piece, is that the less tightly we hold onto certainty, or a fixed outcome, the easier it becomes to deal with both planned and unexpected changes in our lives.
This is day 38 of my #100DaysToOffload challenge. Want to get involved? Find out more at 100daystooffload.com
Learning to be patient
At the end of last week, I managed to rupture the tendon of my right index finger. Apparently it’s an easy thing to do. The upshot of this is that my finger is in a splint for six to eight weeks while the tendon heals.
This morning I joined Sanctus' daily journaling session where the prompt was ‘What are you aware of?’ It got me thinking about how the splint has affected me over the past few days as I’ve been getting used to doing things a bit differently. Most things are OK as I can still grip with the remaining three fingers and thumb. Where a bit more dexterity is needed, for handwriting, eating and tying my laces etc, I’m having to modify my technique.
What I am most aware of is:
I’m only a few days in to this but I can already feel I’m going to learn a lot over the next couple of months. And that those lessons will apply more broadly to life than just what I can or can’t do with my hand.
This is day 37 of my #100DaysToOffload challenge. Want to get involved? Find out more at 100daystooffload.com
A change of scene
Last week I did a couple of things that I’ve not done in around six months: slept in a bed that’s not my own and went to the pub for a pint. When the roadmap out of lockdown was announced we booked a few nights away in a holiday cottage for the earliest available opportunity. And the time to take that opportunity rolled around last week.
Until we arrived in this peaceful spot, I hadn’t realised how much I needed both the change of scenery and the time to fully disconnect and immerse myself in the beautiful countryside of Northumberland and Cumbria.
Our only neighbours on the farm where our cottage was located were a family of friendly goldfinches and a field full of sheep and their lambs.
We had some wonerful weather for walking and did a couple of varied routes. First, a loop from Lambley Viaduct that included sections of both the Pennine Way and South Tyne Trail. We got to go under and over the viaduct at varuous points on the route.
Our second walk took us along a section of Hadrian’s Wall, from Walltown Quarry to Great Chesters. We walked back along the vallum and crossed farmland to Tipal Burn and returned to the start via the ruins of Thirwall Castle.
We ended our stay with visits to RSPB Geltsdale and Talkin Tarn.
Other than walking, we did a lot of birdwatching. Over the week we saw:
When we weren’t outdoors the main activity was reading. I chose to take Matt Haig’s The Midnight Library, which I devoured, and Robert Macfarlane’s The Old Ways, which helped me think about the paths we we walking in a new way.
I feel ready to return to work next week rested and recharged. Also with a renewed commitment to get out here more regularly for longer walks to top up my personal battery.
This is day 36 of my #100DaysToOffload challenge. Want to get involved? Find out more at 100daystooffload.com
Tags: #holidays #gratitude
Reasons to be cheerful #6
I’ve had a few weeks off from writing this list. That was not because there was nothing to say, but because I’ve been trying to spend more time disconnected and enjoying a wider variety of activities that don’t require a screen. So let me catch you up on the things that have been making me smile recently…
Tags: #gratitude
Play your own game
On my walk earlier today I was listening to an episode of Planet FPL. You’ll often find me consuming this kind of content, especially towards the end of the week, as I make decisions about my Fantasy Premier League (FPL) team. Towards the end of this particular episode, one of the hosts reminds listeners to play your own game.
The reference here is to the tendency among FPL managers to fixate on, and even copy, the transfer and captaincy decisions that other managers make. Ultimately, however, the decisions we make about individual players have to be made in the context of our teams as a whole. Just because a manager ranked in the top 10 is transferring in a certain player, it doesn’t mean that it’s right for your team too.
Why am I writing about this? Well, often I find soundbites like this that are intended for a specific context actually have implications or applications in other areas of life. And today, for me, the reminder to play your own game is much needed advice for some business decisions I’m making. It made me realise that I’ve drifted off this path of late.
I’ve become caught up with what everyone else in the coaching industry is doing without really considering whether that’s the direction I want to go in. And let me tell you readers, it is not. So from now on as I make choices for my business I’ll be asking myself is this what you want to do or what you feel you should do?
This is day 35 of my #100DaysToOffload challenge. Want to get involved? Find out more at 100daystooffload.com
A virtual visit to Amsterdam
Six weeks on from our last virtual weekend away we were on our imaginary travels again this weekend. Our destination for this trip was Amsterdam.
Once more, our plans involved exploring the history, culture and cuisine of our chosen destination. Some highlights included:
Where next, who knows?
This is day 34 of my #100DaysToOffload challenge. Want to get involved? Find out more at 100daystooffload.com
Reasons to be cheerful #5
Signs of Spring are certainly a recurring theme in these lists at the moment. Perhaps because the changing seasons are the only thing that differs from week to week at the moment.
Anyway, here’s what’s brought a smile to my face this week:
Tags: #gratitude
Joy is not made to be a crumb
If you suddenly and unexpectedly feel joy, don’t hesitate. Give in to it. …whatever it is, don’t be afraid of its plenty. Joy is not made to be a crumb.
When I saw these lines in a recent newsletter from James Clear it made me smile. They’re from Mary Oliver’s poem Don’t Hesitate which we had as a reading at our wedding.
It’s a poem that asks us to remember that among all the terrible things that happen in the world and amidst all our errors of judgment, there’s still possibility. There’s still joy if we take the time to notice and nurture it.
Here you can hear Don’t Hesitate read in full.
This is day 33 of my #100DaysToOffload challenge. Want to get involved? Find out more at 100daystooffload.com
Tags: #poetry #gratitude #noticing
Reasons to be cheerful #4
Some weeks these lists are hard to write. Not for the lack of things to put on them but that other things happening in the world make each item feel insignificant. And then I remember, that’s exactly why I write them.
So here’s a selection of things that keep me smiling:
Tags: #gratitude
Newsletter frequency
Most newsletters come out on a schedule that suits the creator. Daily. Weekly. Fortnightly. Monthly. Occasionally.
What if you as the recipient could choose?
I currently send my newsletter weekly, with one issue per month as a round-up of links to things I’ve found interesting, appealing or useful. If I added a list of my writing from the month to the link round-up I would be able to give readers the option to receive the newsletter either weekly or monthly. Either way they would receive the same content but on a frequency they preferred.
Do you offer this option already? I’d love to see some examples.
This is day 32 of my #100DaysToOffload challenge. Want to get involved? Find out more at 100daystooffload.com